I am who I am

So I recently published my first post on this blog and I had to laugh at myself because I have fought with myself every day since then not to go back and change what I wrote. I have been worrying constantly that I sound too sarcastic, or nerdy, or snarky, or not as well-spoken and poetic as other P.C. volunteers, etc, etc, etc. I’ve worried about what the other new volunteers in my group will think about me once they have read it. I’ve worried that I didn’t come up with any cute puns to use in my title, and then I worry that maybe I worry too much.

ANYWAY…I’ve come to a few realizations
1. I do worry too much.
2. Even after all this time I still hold on to some of that high school insecurity that I won’t fit in or be cool enough…thanks high school :/
3. My first blog post sounds sarcastic, nerdy, and snarky because it turns out that I’m all of those things
4. Life really is too short to worry about if people will find out that you are all sorts of flawed
5. People are capable of liking you just the way you are…nerdy sarcastic faults and all

So in the spirit of this new adventure and wanting to prevent getting ulcers from lying awake worrying about things like blog posts I am just going to embrace who I am. As I am just 59 short days from turning 30 (holy crap!) I am going to try really hard to fight all those thoughts that tell me to change my posts to sound like someone else and just be myself even if that person is not perfect…and even if every other P.C. volunteers’ blogs I’ve read sound like they could win a freaking Pulitzer

That is all. Peace!

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3 thoughts on “I am who I am

  1. Woot! I enjoyed your posts.. and I’m looking forward to meeting you in January.. and hearing all about your Marine Corps adventures!

  2. I know your off for Thailand as we speak but I wanna say good luck! Your gonna do amazing things and I can’t wait to hear all about them! Go forth good chicken. šŸ™‚

  3. i TRIED AND TRIED TO GET YOUR BLOG…AND AFTER TALKING TO YOUR MOM LAAT NIGHT WAS finally ABLE TO DO SO. L
    OVE YOU BEING YOU!!

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